Turn Around Tuesday.

Hi all.

October 16th is approaching and I am no where near that goal I posted recently.  This girl has a new goal and that is to be at 168 by Thanksgiving.

Weight Watchers does a 8 weeks until Thanksgiving program where they basically say, "Hey, you could be at a reasonable goal by Thanksgiving."  I thought I would give it a try.

I have learned that I have a problem with limiting myself.  Especially when it comes to yogurt toppings.  So, I just am taking that off the deal, and planning for these treats.

The new goal has me tracking everything I eat, before I eat it.  I also am paper tracking.  That means writing it down without the help of the smart phone or web.  I am more conscious  when I do it. I am also journaling about obstacles and feelings.  That adds to the process too.

I like to think of myself as an example of somebody who has met their goal but still struggles.  Hey we all do.  I used to look at skinny girls and just get angry and think they were blessed with some amazing metabolism.  The truth is that lots of these "skinny" girls are very conscious of what goes in their bodies and they are also usually big exercisers.  Life is about the calorie in-calorie out equation.  It is just simple math.  If you eat more calories than you burn, you will gain weight.  If you eat less calories than you burn, you will lose weight.  Simple, yet so hard because the natural man just wants to eat whatever he wants without consequence.  There is opposition in all things.  Even food.  Interesting, no?

Okay.  Enough about this.  I am off to change the world one teen at a time.  Have a great turnaround Tuesday!

A New Goal

I have set a goal to be at 169 on October 16th.  The reason I am wanting to be there is so that I can try to become a Weight Watchers leader. 

By writing this goal on this site, I am putting it out there and making it reality.

Habits I am changing:

1.  If I have frozen yogurt, no toppings. 

And the no fat option.

2. I will track everything, BEFORE it becomes part of me. If I can't find it in the tracker, I cannot eat it!

3.  Snacking at work needs to change. The candy in my office is getting moved and I am going to buy healthier snacks and put them at the stops I have after school. Especially, in the front office. 

4. I am going to drink water like it is going out of style. It will keep me full. 

5. I am going to notice and listen to my hunger and stop when full!

6.  I am going to track ahead.  This means that I need to know what is for dinner BEFORE the day starts!

A Run in the Sun

Hi. I decided while out on my run that I would come back, stretch and then post in here.

I used to blog on a running blog but have recently been debating my life as a runner. I love running. It truly has a drug effect on my brain and has really helped me get into shape. The unfortunate thing about running is that it is very hard on my knee(an old war injury from my rugby days at Utah State.). See, I like running races because it really helps me focus my training. When you have a race coming up, you train more out of fear that you will die or be publicly humiliated(lots of people show up for those races!). And running against the clock is a thrill and great goal. I am great at 5 kilometer races(3.1 miles). My knee doesn't complain and I can train. I, at, one time wanted to run a 10k and started to train. The knee hated me. I got in a rut and have just been a running for the sake of running and to burn calories. It is nice not to track distance or pace and I am happy with just being a non-racing runner. So, long story short, to save the knee and not get bored, I am now a cross trainer. Hiking, biking, an occasional(2 times per week) run, and walking are the new modes of calorie burning. The running blog seems obsolete these days, so on occasion, I will be writing about my training on here. It's a way to keep track of my activity and make it that I blog more.

I now gage runs based not on miles and pace but on sprinklers and water fountains. Today was a pretty nice run with three sprinklers and two and a half water fountains(one had poor pressure). The sprinklers this time of year are divine. It is too hot here in Utah for this Wisconsin girl and running through sprinklers not only makes me feel like a kid again, but it cools me off!! I also got out on the run a little late because I miss judged time on my weight watchers meeting which makes for warmer runs. I still got myself out there though which is a win.

I had to pay again this week to attend the meeting but I still went. It' totally worth ten bucks to get back on track. My friends and I are having a tracking challenge this week. If you fail, you buy movie tickets for everybody next week (summer brings a weekly movie escapade).

Having a support group is highly important. Knowing other people are in the same situation as am is confronting and motivating. I know I wouldn't be as successful without my supports. I also wouldn't be as successful without weekly check ins/meetings. (As was apparent by the last three weeks and my weight gain.)

Two goals for this week:
1. Get back to my goal weight and not have to pay for Weight Watchers next week.
2. Track all I eat and their PointsPlus Values on paper.

Here is an experiment. Who is reading this blog these days? I am curious like George. I ask that you leave a comment on this post. What is your goal this week? Thanks for participating! Cheers.

Oh boy.

The past three weeks have been a roller coaster. Getting married is a whole new kind of adventure. Stress was a huge thing before and the celebrations seemed never ending after. Mix that all with vacationing in Wisconsin and it was a deadly combination for being off track with my eating.

I expected that though and to be completely honest, I let loose. I didn't keep track of what I was eating and I ate what I wanted. The seven pounds gained is the consequence to that choice. I fully take responsibility and can't complain about the extra work I now need to do in order to get to my new goal (and the money I will have to pay to Weight Watchers tomorrow night.).

Life is always going to happen and there are going to be many times when I let loose and have to refocus later. This is the journey that I always talk about. I will always have food issues and will always need to be conscious of them. I also feel that sometimes I will need to have some time where I am flexible and can celebrate and not keep track of food. The most important thing is that I come back on track. That is what it is all about. We all make mistakes and we all need to refocus sometimes. If we realize that and don't give up, we can and will be successful in our weight journey!

So, here is to flexibility and here is to refocusing. Go team!

I Want to Eat Everything in the World!

I am surprisingly calm for it being the week of my wedding day.  

Of course, I think I am calm, but I just want to eat and eat.  That is totally a sign of me being a little stressed.  

I better go to bed so I don't eat everything in the world.  That would be embarrassing.  

It's all good until the Calzone

I had a good day. I kept stuffing veggies and fruits into my mouth when I was HUNGRY!  Watermelon is my favorite these days.  So yummy!

The calzone at Nicolitalia ROCKED, but it probably wasn't good point-wise.  I am putting it in as two pieces of pizza.

Reuben and I went to the temple after dinner.  Very nice day!

A Day

Note to self:  You eat when you are stressed.  When I heard the park where my reception is to be was on fire, I kinda freaked.  Luckily, the fire was little and didn't effect the actual place of the reception.  Good thing!

Ran today.  It was nice.  I also rode the bike to work, then to the bowling alley and back with the kids in my summer class, and then rode home.  Good bit of activity!

I need to track better...meaning I do not wait until the tail end of the day to know what I have eaten and how much wiggle room I have for dinner.  So, the second Note to Self is:  Track before Bite.

Cheers.

Hi

I weighed myself on Saturday and quickly went and weighed in.  I figure that if I am in my goal range, I best be a weighing.  Seems like this time before getting married is tough and I will take what I can get.  Life should get a little less hectic come July and then I can get back on the quest to become a leader.  Not that I couldn't be concentrating on losing weight right now, but it is just proving to be hard and sometimes you just have to accept life.  I am trying to be real good during the day,  seeing my nights usually end up being on the higher point plus values end.  Dang fiances!

Went on a two hour bike ride with my summer PE class today.  It was nice to be out and about in the good weather.  I think I am going to start logging my exercise here on the blog.  It will motivate me to be more active.

Cheers!

Damn Crackers and other Ramblings

Note to Self:  Don't eat things before tracking them.  I hate those blasted crackers.

Did okay today.  Was able to enjoy the burger because I planned for it.  I would have been a bit more happy had I actually looked up the points plus value for the crackers I had while on the hike with my students, but it is what it is.  We had a good hike and I really wish the online tools would have a real hiking listed for activity.  Cross country just doesn't seem intense enough.  Bummer.  

The burger with my friend, Kerri was delicious.  I sure do love me a burger!

Cheers!

30 Points Plus and 12 Activity Points Plus

Not too bad of a day.  Good stuff!

I am tired.  Summer school for three hours just wears me out! :)

And there was great celebration!

The final bridal shower happened tonight.  I am so not the girl that gets excited about this stuff.  Thankfully, I have a great future sister-in-law to plan amazing parties like this one.  Notice the wonderful snacks on this beautifully set up table.  The cake pops were divine.  And that wonderful strawberry smoothie shake thing was delightful.  Emily rocks!

Now how do I balance all this celebration and lose weight?  If you find the answer, let me know, because this girl is a struggling.

Surprise Sabotage

Craziness happened at work today and when I was there to bring something back, the principal asked me to lunch.  I said yes because it was a goodbye to one of our co-workers, which was totally unexpected.

It was Brick Oven and very tasty.  I ate too much.   I should have skipped the pasta and only had the salad bar and soup.  You live you learn, right?

Then Reuben came and we picked up a sandwich before the hike.  And we had frozen yogurt to top off the night.  SIGH.

I did hike and that was a good workout.  I will track it.

Baseball Rocks.

I went to a Bees game today and I sure do love baseball.  I did track and make sure I didn't go too overboard.  Okay, so the cookie dough ice cream was a little extreme, but so be it.

There is nothing like a hot dog at the ballpark.  I highly enjoyed it.

I also rode the bike for an hour this morning.  That is a good thing.  Maybe it will help erase that ice cream and cotton candy.  This is why I exercise.  I think about how many cookies or frozen yogurts I just burned.  It makes me feel better about sweating and being in agony.  Exercise isn't my favorite but I do it for the benefits.

Good stuff.
Cheers

Activity.

Key to weight loss.  Eat less, move more.  Just sayin'

Tonight at meeting we talked about activity.  It is important to find something you like to do.  Not all of us are runners and if you don't like it, you won't do it.

I committed that I will be active and track in each day in the next week.  I will do it.

Today, I did better than the last few.  It is nice.

Holy Jambalaya!

We celebrated the holiday with the future in-laws.  Specifically, the Cajun side from Reuben's dad's side.  I was in Cajun heaven with Jambalaya and Gumbo.  LOVED IT.

I did eat way too much, but the chocolate cake was totally worth it.  Just sayin'.  I rode the bike for an hour and a half to hopefully solve the overeat problem.  We will see.  The overeating needs to stop.  Back on track tomorrow, even though that isn't ever a good thing to say.  It should be: I am now back on track!

Cheers and Happy Memorial Day!

Fail

I am actually trying to see how many pounds I can GAIN this week.  Just kidding, but that is how I am eating.

Tomorrow will be hard with the family gathering and dinner with a friend.  SIGH.

Someday I'll Get Back on Track!

Pizza and a Rockband Party.  'Nough said!

Horribly no good

When breakfast is 19 Points Plus Value, you know it's bad.

With a school's over breakfast and BBQ lunch, I was doomed.

Tomorrow is a new day!

Repeat Pete.

Pretty much a horrible food day.  Celebrating the end of school is bad, bad tracking news.

From a hot dog at lunch, to 3 big cookies, to the fabulous Indian food my fiance bought me tonight that I didn't budget for.  It was all yummy.

Sometimes you have to indulge or you will always indulge.  Just sayin'

Graduation Day.

Too. Much. Food.

I should track it but haven't yet.  It probably is bad, bad news with the yearbook signing party with snow cones, popcorn and diet coke.  I guess the diet coke is okay even though it is killing my body slowly.

Then it was graduation with cookies after and then Jimmy Johns and frozen yogurt.

Oh yeah and lunch was Sensuous Sandwich.

What a day.  But it was a good and fun day.  I love graduation day.  Those kids sure do have my heart!

Weigh In and Stuff.

I just have to say that I  have found a new favorite leader.  Don't tell her, she might get a big head.

Meetings are great. They are a time for me to refocus and reflect.  It is also a place to get feedback from the scale.  Today I was down a pound and a half from last week, which was very surprising seeing I had wet hair and regular clothes on(I usually am in basketball shorts and a t-shirt.  Tonight I was dressed up for the Senior Banquet at school.)  Running helps lots!

Good day.  Maybe went over in points thanks to cake and J-Dawgs.  It was yummy though!

Okay day.

At least the run burned off the calories from the cupcake at lunch that I couldn't resist.

The prize for getting the first fish of the season was frozen yogurt.  I may be addicted!  Just sayin'

Life is crazy this week.  Keeps me out of trouble, right?

Sunday, Not Bloody Sunday!

Not too shabby today.  I don't usually track on Sundays but today I decided to take the plunge.  I am happy with myself.  Let's say Hurrah to tracking well this whole week even though it will be a crazy week with then end of school and all!

Cheers!

Tracker from Today! Go ME!

blah blah blah

I have no willpower.  Wait.  I need to change that.  I do have willpower, I am just not choosing to use it.  I can do hard things but for some reason or another I am not dedicated to the work lately.

I hiked with a friend today that gave me a bit of motivation by saying: "As soon as you become a Weight Watchers leader, I will start coming to meetings."

I also have some other motivation because there is a wedding dress about to be made for me.

Why in the little moments that my fiance says: "Want anything?" can't I say: "Nope, I am good."

If I wouldn't have eaten the sourdough bread that he brought over for dinner on Friday, I would have been okay to eat the popcorn at the game that I did.  Dang it.

This week...I am committing to write every bite and stay at 29 points plus values a day.  Hold me to it, would you faithful readers?

Cheers.

Meh.

I should be motivated to lose some pounds because in two weeks we will be measuring me for the wedding dress.  Why do I like kit kat on my frozen yogurt so much.  Here's the new goal.  The next five times at the yogurt place, I will have only one topping or less as compared to the four I am currently putting on.  I guess it is a start.

Cheers.

Attack of the killer Swedish Fish and Popcorn

...sigh.  I did get in 60 minutes of biking today though.  That is good.  Want to try running again but worry I will have those dang side aches again.

Went a little over points plus value wise, but that is expected with an after school carnival.

See the dunk tank here!

Better...in a way.

Today, I ate about 30 points plus again.  This is okay for me to maintain, especially with me not exercising.

The exercise gods are against me.  I ran about two blocks today before getting this horrible side ache.  I have been running for two years and never have had this problem.  The last run I had a bit of one on the way home, but it wasn't nearly as bad as today.  I think I am falling apart.  I think I am not sleeping enough and drinking way too much soda.  It's sad really.  I need to make a turn around.  I did plan for the chips and cake(a student brought it to share during a movie we were watching.).  I over indulged and then couldn't eat too much for dinner.  :(  I also was weak at the laundry mat when I found Mambas in my car. I also then bought 25 cents worth of M&Ms while at the laundromat.  I ate half and then threw them away.  I often throw things away when I am out of control.  I can't feel guilty about throwing food away. Especially when it is toxic!

I am also trying to get more support.  Today I asked a student to help me not eat any more chips and she wasn't a good help.  I also need to keep telling Reuben exactly what I need from him to be successful.  It is very hard while being engaged and eating out all the time.

Best be getting to sleep.  Hope your Wednesday was wonderful!

Progress?

I stayed within 30 Points Plus today. That is alright. I did not squeeze in my run as planned. I talked to my sister before weigh in instead of hitting the pavement. It was needed so I am trying to let go of the guilt. I got home too late to get any exercise in today. Tomorrow is a new day and I did rode the bike to work today. That should count for something. Yea me.

I did also not put any...that is right NO toppings on my frozen yogurt tonight. That is good right? The usual is: circus cookies(3), kit kat, cookie dough, and sometimes pretzels or coco pebbles. Maybe my new commitment will be to either have only one topping or none. That may help with the goal to lose. I also need to ask the fiancé for help. Dates are weak moments for me lately.

I think I need to rid myself of caffeine again. It does weird things to my digestion and lately my heart has weird palpitations. The same ones that happen when I am stressed and drinking super amounts of caffeine. (both stress and caffeine are usuals in my life lately!)

Meeting was good tonight. It was a good reminder to make sure I have a list when grocery shopping. It would have helped tonight seeing I forgot something for my class tomorrow.

Well. I also need to get more sleep these days too. It makes a difference in me losing better and being less grumpy. I think my students would appreciate that!

Cheers!

Stress makes you eat.

Well, at least that is all I want to do when I am stressed.

Planning a wedding is stressful. Man, there is so much to do! I hate it. I just want it to be over. Maybe eloping would have been good.

Going fishing with Reuben made it better. He's cute and good to me! It is hard not to eat a ton around him either though because we eat dinner and always want to get yogurt for desert. Totally caved in tonight. :( but really :). It makes me happy to eat frozen yogurt.

Off to dreamland.

Happy Mothers Day!

Hi all.

I celebrated Mothers Day by eating with the soon to be in laws.  It was yummy.  I didn't track it and am not going to feel guilty about it.  When I was doing the plan to lose weight, I never tracked Sundays.  It worked for me.  Not saying that it will work for everybody.  I also never track sauces.  Fry sauce, ketchup, mustard, etc.  Sauce is part of who I am.  I guess it comes out in the wash of weekly points plus points.

So there.  Happy Mothers Day.  My fiance drew me a card that said: "Alice, Future Mother of America." It's an inside joke. FMA.  That is me.  One day at least!

Weekends are Hard

I did okay until tonight.  I had my burger and fries for the week and I totally had them planned in, but I also had a few whoppers and some popcorn at the movies.  I was weak.  I need to be better at asking for support from my fiance.  If I ask, I get what I need!

Hey, I also had an epiphany today.  I thought back to when I was losing weight and how I was only running 3 times a week and taking breaks the rest of the time.  I was religious about only eating 29 points plus values.  It worked; I lost.  Lately, I have had to exercise everyday to lose weight.  I also don't track very well and go over my allotment of points plus values sometimes.  Duh.  Doesn't that make sense?  You eat less and exercise less, then you are okay.  If you eat more, you have to exercise more.  What a novel idea, no?

Tomorrow will be better, right?  Well, it is Mother's Day and we are going to the in laws.  I bet there will be a great desert.  Sigh!

A little bit...

I said yes to the bagel.  I had planned on it.  (The Vice Principal often buys Einstein on Fridays)

I said no to the peanut butter cups.

I said yes to the big pieces of pizza.

I said no to the third piece of pizza.

I said yes to a few pieces of candy that I found on the fridge while babysitting.

I said no to the pretzel rods on the top of my fridge when I got home.

I said no to the bites that I usually steal from kids eating in health class.

I said yes to the one bite of Reuben's last piece of pizza.

I have said no to exercise the past two days.

I must say yes to a long run tomorrow morning.

Cheers.

Triscuts and Chips Got me

I couldn't say no to chips at dinner tonight.  I also couldn't say no to the Parmesan Garlic Triscuts Sharri gave me after school.  Dang snacks.  I was able to say no to treats after Reuben and I went to the batting cages and mini golfing though.  That is good, right?

Now, I must say yes to sleep!

Cheers.

A enlightening day!

Seriously?  What is wrong with this picture?  I thought Subway was bad by the  place we usually go to meetings at.  The smell...it killed me!

From chair at running shoe store

Funny from dinner at Jimmy John's!

It really does!

My Mantra displayed at my meeting tonight.

This is funky writing this right now.  But in the end it will work out. You can't see the weirdness...so that is good.

Tonight was weigh in night.  I am back into my lifetime range.  I have about fiveish pounds to lose in order to qualify to be able to apply to become a Weight Watchers(I always want to put copyrighted behind that!) leader.  Seriously(I know I am rarely serious), I get a little scared when I think about being a leader.  That whole "I am not good enough" attitude sets in when I think about it.  This week really has been an eye opening experience when it comes to that.  I have learned that I question myself ALL. THE. TIME.  I also feel I can trace this back a little bit to my father.  He is a perfectionist and if it wasn't done the way he thought was perfect, then it was wrong.  So I am constantly questioning myself.  Whether it is how many chairs to set up for a school assembly or shoe size when buying new running shoes, I am always worried that I am going to choose wrongly. (IS wrongly a word?)

Tonight, in our meeting, we talked about motivation and what motivates us.  It was fun to see what other people are  motivated by.  I didn't chime in too much because I was in agreement with a few of the members.  I am motivated by the high blood pressure that "runs in the family."  It runs in our family because of the way we choose to eat.  I love not having to spend money on blood pressure meds.  I also love the fact that after surgery one time, a nurse said to me after I came to, "Do you happen to be a runner?" I said: "Yes I am, why?"  He then said: "Well good.  At one point we were a bit concerned at how slow your heart was beating during the procedure, but you being fit makes it make sense."  That was like a total pat on the back to me that day.  It is way cool to have a heart that works less than the old fat-girl heart.  I am also motivated by money.  You have to pay to go to meetings if you are not a lifetime member of Weight Watchers, and I don't want to pay.  Free is very motivating to me.  Apparently, flying pigs are too.  The leader, told me that if I get to that 169(The BMI top range for my height) she would give me one of her stuffed flying pigs.  They are so cool.  I'll have to post a pic when I get it.  The leader is pretty dang cool too...but don't tell her I said that.  She may get a big head or something.  (Just kidding MC!)

My friend, Sharri, and I also had good times talking tonight.  It was fun to listen to her as she opened up about what motivates her.  She basically got a little choked up as she talked about how she needed to change in order to keep her job.  Now, how does weight weigh in here?  Well, in order to be a different and better person she had to change her eating habits and become healthy.  I agree with this too.  I am a completely different person today than who I was when I started this weight loss journey.  I used to be cynical and calloused.  I didn't love my life.  I just kinda coasted along.  Today I am somebody who loves life.  I live for moments and expect everyday to be good.  I love people and try to be a positive influence in others lives.  Maybe I am a little bit more extroverted than I was before too.  I was self absorbed and it isn't good to be caught in yourself all the time.  I know that I am important and have to take care of me, but it is more fun to help others find the good and possibility inside of them.  Everybody has the ability to be great!  I love helping my students see the possibility within themselves.  When they get how good and smart they are, it makes my day and life, really.  I also love seeing people be successful in weight loss.  I like to be an example to those around me.  It totally motivates me to know that I can help people get on the healthy wagon.  I also know people are counting on me to be good and keep on plan!  It's great to have buddies on this journey.  

Wow, this was a novel.  It's been a great week.  I like blogging so much.  I think it makes me experience the moments a little better during the day!

Have a Terrific Thursday.  Until your eyes meet my words again,  cheers! (And I am also writing 31 posts on my regular blog.  Feel free to check it out HERE!

What did I learn today?

I really don't know.  I am kinda comatose.

I did say no to donut holes and ice cream sandwiches.  I can do hard things.

Must sleep.

Weigh in tomorrow.  Here is to me being at goal! :)

Not too Shabby.

Today was easier than some in the past.  Want to know the trick?  I tracked everything before I even left for the day.  That is right, I knew exactly what I would eat before I ate it and it made it possible for me to make it through the day in plan.  It really is that easy.  Just sayin'.  How was your day?

Day 6

Today was easy seeing it is Fast Sunday for church.  I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and the first Sunday of each month we participate in a fast for 24 hours.  It is a good cleanse.  I was reminded how I really have a hard time without liquids and it is easier to say no to food, while fasting.  Good thing to know seeing the rest of the time I have a hard time saying no to food and liquids are no biggie! :)

I am thinking I will be back in goal range by meeting on Wednesday.  YIPEE.

ARGH!

Oops.  Sometimes that is what I have to say about the day.  I ate a lot of food.

Pancakes, eggs, sausage and potatoes for breakfast.

Popcorn at the roller derby.

Lots of tortilla chips and salsa at the fiance and my celebration of Cinco De Mayo.  Also a tamale and rice and beans and more chips.

Frozen yogurt for dinner.

I will be back on track tomorrow! :)

Mini Vacation

The fiance and I went to his brother-in-law's cabin near Fairview.  It was fun to hang out with the future brother-in-law and father-in-law.  I am marrying into an extremely nice family! (and they have a really nice cabin to boot!)

It was a nice little get away.  Unfortunately, being on vacation is always a little bit hard for being good with food.  I ate a little too much snacks and didn't track.  Bad Alice.  I am now going to go and track what I ate today(I really am writing this Saturday). Pretend that I really wrote this on Friday because it is the month of 31 posts.

Meh. Sometimes there are days like this!

I had something clever in mind to say that I thought of during the day today, but I can't remember it.  Note to self: I need to write things down in my phone as soon as I think of it.

I ate a cookie today.  It was delicious.  Just saying.  Sometimes you need the cookie.  I also ate a hamburger and fries.  Sometimes you need that.

I did actually ride the bike for 80 minutes today.  That makes today a little less harsh.

Glad tomorrow is Friday!

I did not eat the cupcake...

...but I did eat more jelly bellies.  I had a within range kind of a day.  Oh, and I ran for over a half hour.  Good things, no?

I pinky swore with my WW buddy at work saying I would not eat a Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcake.  Seriously, those are so good, yet so bad.  I decided I can eat one when I get down to the BMI range for my height.  I am thinking of applying to become a leader.  Yikes.

31 Posts in May

Today, not so good on the food end. Too many Jelly Bellies and a yummy mayo filled sandwich.

I am struggling with eating well. I just have lost the drive to say no! I need to "Stop It!" (search for the Bob Newhart YouTube video entitled "Stop It!" it is hilarious!)

My dad had a heart attack this morning. It made me want to eat all the chocolate on the planet. He is doing okay, but it is starting to hit me a bit hard. Life is too fragile.

Well, I best get to sleep. Here is to a month of blogging and getting my groove back!

Cheers!!

The Journey Rolls On...

Quote of the day:  "There is a fat girl inside of me and I never feed her!"

I haven't been writing on here much. I think I am going to commit to writing at least once a week. I think meeting night for Weight Watchers is appropriate, don't you? 

Tonight we talked about positive self talk. Seriously, this is needed to be successful in losing weight and in life in general. Nobody likes Negative Nelly(even ourselves!)! When we choose(and it is a choice) to be positive, we really can do anything. My mantra has always been: "I can do hard things." I find that when I say this, I really can do anything. Does this mean it is always easy to do hard things. Hell Heck no. But it is possible. Lately I have been thinking that we often limit ourselves because we label things as "impossible." We often think that because it is hard, we should just give up because it is easier to do so! What a silly way to live and to think. Sure, life is hard sometimes, but seriously, I am learning that nothing is impossible.

 One of my friends didn't come to our meeting tonight because she isn't following the plan and isn't writing everything down that she eats. Doesn't that seem just a little silly? It is like missing your exit to Provo, Utah while traveling south on I-15 and just continuing onward to Vegas because you made a mistake. No, silly, you turn that puppy around in Springville and recalculate. I know that if I don't get to my weekly meeting, I won't be successful. These meetings are my anchor and support. The end.

 I am thinking of becoming a Weight Watchers leader. That means I have to lose 8 pounds. Think I can do it?

 Cheers.

I said no to the donut.

But not to the red vines and robin eggs. Shame.

I need an overhaul. Help help help.

At least I just rode the exercise bike for 40 min. Silly Alice.

What...a new post on here?

Hi. Welcome. I haven't written in a while so I thought I would stay up past my bedtime and update.

I am struggling with tracking everything I eat. This is partly due to the fact that I am being fed a lot by my new boyfriend's mother. Her bread is amazing and I have no clue how many PointsPlus it would be. I need to figure that out. The other part is that dating means going out to eat all the time. Hopefully, this will quiet down shortly.

Life is good here though. I am trying not to fall in the trap of: "he will love me anyway, even if I am bigger." I don't want to be that person again. I need to get back on track. This means I need to go to sleep instead of eating another piece of the wonderful bread that was sent home with me tonight.

Cheers!
Alice