Better...in a way.

Today, I ate about 30 points plus again.  This is okay for me to maintain, especially with me not exercising.

The exercise gods are against me.  I ran about two blocks today before getting this horrible side ache.  I have been running for two years and never have had this problem.  The last run I had a bit of one on the way home, but it wasn't nearly as bad as today.  I think I am falling apart.  I think I am not sleeping enough and drinking way too much soda.  It's sad really.  I need to make a turn around.  I did plan for the chips and cake(a student brought it to share during a movie we were watching.).  I over indulged and then couldn't eat too much for dinner.  :(  I also was weak at the laundry mat when I found Mambas in my car. I also then bought 25 cents worth of M&Ms while at the laundromat.  I ate half and then threw them away.  I often throw things away when I am out of control.  I can't feel guilty about throwing food away. Especially when it is toxic!

I am also trying to get more support.  Today I asked a student to help me not eat any more chips and she wasn't a good help.  I also need to keep telling Reuben exactly what I need from him to be successful.  It is very hard while being engaged and eating out all the time.

Best be getting to sleep.  Hope your Wednesday was wonderful!