Sunday, Not Bloody Sunday!

Not too shabby today.  I don't usually track on Sundays but today I decided to take the plunge.  I am happy with myself.  Let's say Hurrah to tracking well this whole week even though it will be a crazy week with then end of school and all!

Cheers!

Tracker from Today! Go ME!

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I have no willpower.  Wait.  I need to change that.  I do have willpower, I am just not choosing to use it.  I can do hard things but for some reason or another I am not dedicated to the work lately.

I hiked with a friend today that gave me a bit of motivation by saying: "As soon as you become a Weight Watchers leader, I will start coming to meetings."

I also have some other motivation because there is a wedding dress about to be made for me.

Why in the little moments that my fiance says: "Want anything?" can't I say: "Nope, I am good."

If I wouldn't have eaten the sourdough bread that he brought over for dinner on Friday, I would have been okay to eat the popcorn at the game that I did.  Dang it.

This week...I am committing to write every bite and stay at 29 points plus values a day.  Hold me to it, would you faithful readers?

Cheers.

Meh.

I should be motivated to lose some pounds because in two weeks we will be measuring me for the wedding dress.  Why do I like kit kat on my frozen yogurt so much.  Here's the new goal.  The next five times at the yogurt place, I will have only one topping or less as compared to the four I am currently putting on.  I guess it is a start.

Cheers.

Attack of the killer Swedish Fish and Popcorn

...sigh.  I did get in 60 minutes of biking today though.  That is good.  Want to try running again but worry I will have those dang side aches again.

Went a little over points plus value wise, but that is expected with an after school carnival.

See the dunk tank here!

Better...in a way.

Today, I ate about 30 points plus again.  This is okay for me to maintain, especially with me not exercising.

The exercise gods are against me.  I ran about two blocks today before getting this horrible side ache.  I have been running for two years and never have had this problem.  The last run I had a bit of one on the way home, but it wasn't nearly as bad as today.  I think I am falling apart.  I think I am not sleeping enough and drinking way too much soda.  It's sad really.  I need to make a turn around.  I did plan for the chips and cake(a student brought it to share during a movie we were watching.).  I over indulged and then couldn't eat too much for dinner.  :(  I also was weak at the laundry mat when I found Mambas in my car. I also then bought 25 cents worth of M&Ms while at the laundromat.  I ate half and then threw them away.  I often throw things away when I am out of control.  I can't feel guilty about throwing food away. Especially when it is toxic!

I am also trying to get more support.  Today I asked a student to help me not eat any more chips and she wasn't a good help.  I also need to keep telling Reuben exactly what I need from him to be successful.  It is very hard while being engaged and eating out all the time.

Best be getting to sleep.  Hope your Wednesday was wonderful!

Progress?

I stayed within 30 Points Plus today. That is alright. I did not squeeze in my run as planned. I talked to my sister before weigh in instead of hitting the pavement. It was needed so I am trying to let go of the guilt. I got home too late to get any exercise in today. Tomorrow is a new day and I did rode the bike to work today. That should count for something. Yea me.

I did also not put any...that is right NO toppings on my frozen yogurt tonight. That is good right? The usual is: circus cookies(3), kit kat, cookie dough, and sometimes pretzels or coco pebbles. Maybe my new commitment will be to either have only one topping or none. That may help with the goal to lose. I also need to ask the fiancé for help. Dates are weak moments for me lately.

I think I need to rid myself of caffeine again. It does weird things to my digestion and lately my heart has weird palpitations. The same ones that happen when I am stressed and drinking super amounts of caffeine. (both stress and caffeine are usuals in my life lately!)

Meeting was good tonight. It was a good reminder to make sure I have a list when grocery shopping. It would have helped tonight seeing I forgot something for my class tomorrow.

Well. I also need to get more sleep these days too. It makes a difference in me losing better and being less grumpy. I think my students would appreciate that!

Cheers!

Stress makes you eat.

Well, at least that is all I want to do when I am stressed.

Planning a wedding is stressful. Man, there is so much to do! I hate it. I just want it to be over. Maybe eloping would have been good.

Going fishing with Reuben made it better. He's cute and good to me! It is hard not to eat a ton around him either though because we eat dinner and always want to get yogurt for desert. Totally caved in tonight. :( but really :). It makes me happy to eat frozen yogurt.

Off to dreamland.