Meh. Sometimes there are days like this!

I had something clever in mind to say that I thought of during the day today, but I can't remember it.  Note to self: I need to write things down in my phone as soon as I think of it.

I ate a cookie today.  It was delicious.  Just saying.  Sometimes you need the cookie.  I also ate a hamburger and fries.  Sometimes you need that.

I did actually ride the bike for 80 minutes today.  That makes today a little less harsh.

Glad tomorrow is Friday!

I did not eat the cupcake...

...but I did eat more jelly bellies.  I had a within range kind of a day.  Oh, and I ran for over a half hour.  Good things, no?

I pinky swore with my WW buddy at work saying I would not eat a Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcake.  Seriously, those are so good, yet so bad.  I decided I can eat one when I get down to the BMI range for my height.  I am thinking of applying to become a leader.  Yikes.

31 Posts in May

Today, not so good on the food end. Too many Jelly Bellies and a yummy mayo filled sandwich.

I am struggling with eating well. I just have lost the drive to say no! I need to "Stop It!" (search for the Bob Newhart YouTube video entitled "Stop It!" it is hilarious!)

My dad had a heart attack this morning. It made me want to eat all the chocolate on the planet. He is doing okay, but it is starting to hit me a bit hard. Life is too fragile.

Well, I best get to sleep. Here is to a month of blogging and getting my groove back!

Cheers!!

The Journey Rolls On...

Quote of the day:  "There is a fat girl inside of me and I never feed her!"

I haven't been writing on here much. I think I am going to commit to writing at least once a week. I think meeting night for Weight Watchers is appropriate, don't you? 

Tonight we talked about positive self talk. Seriously, this is needed to be successful in losing weight and in life in general. Nobody likes Negative Nelly(even ourselves!)! When we choose(and it is a choice) to be positive, we really can do anything. My mantra has always been: "I can do hard things." I find that when I say this, I really can do anything. Does this mean it is always easy to do hard things. Hell Heck no. But it is possible. Lately I have been thinking that we often limit ourselves because we label things as "impossible." We often think that because it is hard, we should just give up because it is easier to do so! What a silly way to live and to think. Sure, life is hard sometimes, but seriously, I am learning that nothing is impossible.

 One of my friends didn't come to our meeting tonight because she isn't following the plan and isn't writing everything down that she eats. Doesn't that seem just a little silly? It is like missing your exit to Provo, Utah while traveling south on I-15 and just continuing onward to Vegas because you made a mistake. No, silly, you turn that puppy around in Springville and recalculate. I know that if I don't get to my weekly meeting, I won't be successful. These meetings are my anchor and support. The end.

 I am thinking of becoming a Weight Watchers leader. That means I have to lose 8 pounds. Think I can do it?

 Cheers.

I said no to the donut.

But not to the red vines and robin eggs. Shame.

I need an overhaul. Help help help.

At least I just rode the exercise bike for 40 min. Silly Alice.

What...a new post on here?

Hi. Welcome. I haven't written in a while so I thought I would stay up past my bedtime and update.

I am struggling with tracking everything I eat. This is partly due to the fact that I am being fed a lot by my new boyfriend's mother. Her bread is amazing and I have no clue how many PointsPlus it would be. I need to figure that out. The other part is that dating means going out to eat all the time. Hopefully, this will quiet down shortly.

Life is good here though. I am trying not to fall in the trap of: "he will love me anyway, even if I am bigger." I don't want to be that person again. I need to get back on track. This means I need to go to sleep instead of eating another piece of the wonderful bread that was sent home with me tonight.

Cheers!
Alice

Feelings of Failure.

Yesterday was one of those days. You know the ones, where you eat and eat and eat and figure because you have eaten and eaten and eaten that it doesn't really matter anyway? Yeah that was the type.

I keep thinking that I need to write on here. I am sure it isn't because anybody is reading this blog, because I am sure the lack of posts has killed any sort of following, but it probably has to do with me struggling lately. I really just have the attitude of, "well, I am doing well right now and my metabolism is good and I have made it a year in maintenance so I can just play a little." That works a little bit for me. I can play a bit more than I used to be able to while trying to lose weight, but the playing usually adds up over about three weeks and I have to really watch it when it is closer to the first weigh in of the month and worry that I will be over my goal when I weigh in, because I am about two pounds over the two weeks before.

Then I sit around and think: "Is maintenance about going up a few pounds and then buckling back a few pounds to hit the goal at the beginning of the month? Or is maintenance about being the same exact weight from week to week? "

So far for me, maintaining my weight is about being in a range, not a set number. I wish there were some experts who could tell me that this is okay and I could be a little more at ease in my journey to maintain my weight.

I didn't realize that after getting to be my skinny self, there would still be a lot of work to not become chubby again! SIGH.