31 Posts in May

Today, not so good on the food end. Too many Jelly Bellies and a yummy mayo filled sandwich.

I am struggling with eating well. I just have lost the drive to say no! I need to "Stop It!" (search for the Bob Newhart YouTube video entitled "Stop It!" it is hilarious!)

My dad had a heart attack this morning. It made me want to eat all the chocolate on the planet. He is doing okay, but it is starting to hit me a bit hard. Life is too fragile.

Well, I best get to sleep. Here is to a month of blogging and getting my groove back!

Cheers!!

The Journey Rolls On...

Quote of the day:  "There is a fat girl inside of me and I never feed her!"

I haven't been writing on here much. I think I am going to commit to writing at least once a week. I think meeting night for Weight Watchers is appropriate, don't you? 

Tonight we talked about positive self talk. Seriously, this is needed to be successful in losing weight and in life in general. Nobody likes Negative Nelly(even ourselves!)! When we choose(and it is a choice) to be positive, we really can do anything. My mantra has always been: "I can do hard things." I find that when I say this, I really can do anything. Does this mean it is always easy to do hard things. Hell Heck no. But it is possible. Lately I have been thinking that we often limit ourselves because we label things as "impossible." We often think that because it is hard, we should just give up because it is easier to do so! What a silly way to live and to think. Sure, life is hard sometimes, but seriously, I am learning that nothing is impossible.

 One of my friends didn't come to our meeting tonight because she isn't following the plan and isn't writing everything down that she eats. Doesn't that seem just a little silly? It is like missing your exit to Provo, Utah while traveling south on I-15 and just continuing onward to Vegas because you made a mistake. No, silly, you turn that puppy around in Springville and recalculate. I know that if I don't get to my weekly meeting, I won't be successful. These meetings are my anchor and support. The end.

 I am thinking of becoming a Weight Watchers leader. That means I have to lose 8 pounds. Think I can do it?

 Cheers.

I said no to the donut.

But not to the red vines and robin eggs. Shame.

I need an overhaul. Help help help.

At least I just rode the exercise bike for 40 min. Silly Alice.

What...a new post on here?

Hi. Welcome. I haven't written in a while so I thought I would stay up past my bedtime and update.

I am struggling with tracking everything I eat. This is partly due to the fact that I am being fed a lot by my new boyfriend's mother. Her bread is amazing and I have no clue how many PointsPlus it would be. I need to figure that out. The other part is that dating means going out to eat all the time. Hopefully, this will quiet down shortly.

Life is good here though. I am trying not to fall in the trap of: "he will love me anyway, even if I am bigger." I don't want to be that person again. I need to get back on track. This means I need to go to sleep instead of eating another piece of the wonderful bread that was sent home with me tonight.

Cheers!
Alice

Feelings of Failure.

Yesterday was one of those days. You know the ones, where you eat and eat and eat and figure because you have eaten and eaten and eaten that it doesn't really matter anyway? Yeah that was the type.

I keep thinking that I need to write on here. I am sure it isn't because anybody is reading this blog, because I am sure the lack of posts has killed any sort of following, but it probably has to do with me struggling lately. I really just have the attitude of, "well, I am doing well right now and my metabolism is good and I have made it a year in maintenance so I can just play a little." That works a little bit for me. I can play a bit more than I used to be able to while trying to lose weight, but the playing usually adds up over about three weeks and I have to really watch it when it is closer to the first weigh in of the month and worry that I will be over my goal when I weigh in, because I am about two pounds over the two weeks before.

Then I sit around and think: "Is maintenance about going up a few pounds and then buckling back a few pounds to hit the goal at the beginning of the month? Or is maintenance about being the same exact weight from week to week? "

So far for me, maintaining my weight is about being in a range, not a set number. I wish there were some experts who could tell me that this is okay and I could be a little more at ease in my journey to maintain my weight.

I didn't realize that after getting to be my skinny self, there would still be a lot of work to not become chubby again! SIGH.

Support Group

One of the ways I have been successful is to have a good support group. I have found that if I surround myself with people who are positive and who will give me help when needed, I do better. I have also found that I need to keep pessimistic people away from me. I don't need people who will bring me down.

At work, I have snack buddies. These are people who will monitor my food intake. They aren't nags and they don't tell me what to do, but they actually will NOTICE what I am doing. I also have people who will share snacks with me. It is always better to eat half a donut rather than the whole thing, right?

I have a friend here right now and we are horrible supports for each other, right now. We think it is fine to eat and eat because it is "vacation." I need to get out of this mindset and get back on track! But it may be very hard before I get back to Utah and a routine! I also am not a very good support right now because I actually can eat more and am a bit more flexible while in maintenance. So when I want ice cream, I usually eat it!

So, there is the first post about my list of ten things that have helped me be successful. And I even have come up with #10: Ask for help when you need it.!

Whew and a list...

Hi guys. I don't write on here nearly enough. Especially, because I really think I should write a book about my story. It really is a story of triumph. Anyway, I weighed in today and was a little scared, it being the first weigh in of the month. Meaning, if I am over my goal weight by two pounds, then I pay. Well, apparently all my worrying and being very on top of what I was eating paid off because I actually have lost two pounds since last week(maybe wearing lighter clothes helped a little, just sayin'). I had been playing too much the past two weeks and had gained four pounds.

Anyway, my friend has asked me to do a littler presentation at church about my journey. I have come up with a list of nine things that have made me successful at losing weight and for maintaining it the past few months. Here is the list, and I hope to round it out to a list of ten, but this is what I got right now:

1. Tracking all the food I eat and exercise I do.
2. Knowing it's a journey
3. Do not deprive yourself
4. Exercise
5. Drink lots of fluid
6. Veggies and fruit are your friend
7. Controlling my environment
8. Planning ahead
9. Having a support group

Any ideas about a good one for number ten? I am going to write a post about each of these so stay tuned! :)